Wednesday, March 28, 2012


This is a bit embarrassing to admit, but I opened the door to it when I started yammering on about my writerly ambitions on the internet.

I spend way too much time thinking about getting published.

I read blogs about getting published. I follow literary agents and editors on twitter. I enter contests. I sign up for conferences. I revise my query letter for the umpteenth time. I feel happy, and then jealous, every time strangers on the internet announce their own good fortune.

And much like a girl who has only been dating her new boyfriend for three weeks before she starts perusing bridal magazines ("Well, I dated the last one FOREVER!"), it's completely out-of-hand.

I have written two books. I queried agents for one of them.

I have started, and failed to finish, about a dozen more.

Now, I won't pretend that there aren't reasons why I have not finished another book since the last one. For one, it turns out lawyer-as-day job, writer-as-dream job is not an ideal combination, although it has gotten much better now that I don't work 70 hours a week and yes I know some people work more than that, shhh.

The fact is, it's not just one thing but a lot of things that are out-of-balance in my life, and when you don't have the time or intellectual energy to commit to something hard (writing), playing make-believe (reading Miss Snark archives counts as writing, doesn't it?) feels like the next best thing.

Except that it's the worst thing.  Because the next thing you know, you'll wake up and realize that not only are all the goals and timelines you set for yourself long since passed, but that you failed to make any new ones.

So here's the deal.

On October 1st, I will let myself start thinking about agents and publishing again. Until then, I am focusing only on reading and writing.

And silly Internet memes, because a girl can't live on diligence alone.


  1. Okay, that Dame Maggie pic made me laugh out loud. At work. People were looking at me funny.

    Anyway, I know what you mean. If I spent half as much time writing as I do dreaming about being published, I might actually BE published by now.

  2. Good for you! The rat race of this thing can cause fatigue. And that picture is hilarious!!!

  3. Sounds good to me! I read another blog post earlier about how most of the time writer's block is caused by our focusing on the finish instead of on the journey to get there, and that's been my problem lately! I'm so concerned with making my WIP *perfect* right this second, I'm losing focus and need to slow down, stop worrying about who wants to read it or how badly I want to query it and just write and enjoy the process!